The past weeks have been interesting, to say the least. While it is true that I refuse to give up and will keep trying despite whatever gets thrown at me, it hasn’t been easy. And something tells me it won’t get easier, but, of course, it’s all about how I handle it.

I can be so easily influenced by advice that seems “good for me” and yet ends up more like an excuse to procrastinate or simply walk away from things couched as “self-care.”

This makes me uncomfortable… Don’t force yourself.

This isn’t fun… Find something else that is.

I’m not in the mood… Wait until you are.

Yeah, give me any excuse and I’m on the couch binge watching Netflix with plenty of snacks.

I’m not saying “tough love” is the answer, but good grief if I practice any more self-care I’ll never feel the joy of reaching a goal or crossing items off my ever-changing bucket list because I don’t seem to know when to stop “going easy” on myself.

I want to write a book.

I want to learn a new language, really actually learn.

I want to travel more.

I want to make healthy choices for my mind and body.

All of this means hard work, making time to get it done, and knowing I will be uncomfortable or I won’t like it, but sticking to it regardless.

The obstacles aren’t always me feeling lazy or tired or whatever random thing comes up. Sometimes there truly is lack of time due to work or personal obligations, which is normal, but skipping a day or two of studying or eating badly after a long day absolutely has to stay one or two days and then I get my butt back on board that train. I was doing very well at the beginning of this journey, but then I skipped and skipped and skipped and then overcompensated for it… Which led to being overwhelmed and ready to call it quits.

Nope.

I took a few steps back last weekend, got some perspective, and I think I know how I need to deal with staying on track, on schedule, and moving forward (allowing for a few temporary stops here and there).

The main takeaway is that I need to hold myself accountable, and when I can’t? Ask someone to help with that. I don’t reach out as much as I should, preferring to deal with things on my own until it’s too late, the time has passed, and I sound like a whiner talking about it later on. So, if I have a goal, I need to loop someone in on my plan so when I am veering towards the couch with Netflix ready to go, I can reach out and get a metaphorical kick in the butt.

This has been an interesting experiment, a different way to look at myself and see what needs work. How to get that work done. We’re all a work in progress, and that’s a nice thought.


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